bare crosses

bare crosses

i am naked

like a frame

up on blocks

stripped bare

barely standing

rusted through

wiped out by rain

my brain my heart

my bones my skin

 exposed.

i am naked

but not everyone

can see me.

JANEisnotplain 1.18.10

dreamed 0248sm

snowflakes

snowflakes


there are snowflakes as big as my heart and
they catch as globs in angry jealous winds
naked souls dancing through tree tops quivering
frozen in soft kisses around cold little feet
currently vulnerable waiting for warm hands
to defrost my fragile chest gently sneaking
through my window there is beauty. there is
wonder. there is faith. there are snowflakes.

JANEisnotplain

1.2.10 am

driving insanity until dawn

0745am 2010: driving insanity until dawn

i am at a borderline.// my personality meets me halfway.// but i am still Myself.//

i am at that /place where thoughts grow/ragged/and bending light/shifts through

words creating spaces.//

if i were to leave this space.// if i were to disappear into .//  broken atmospheres/

of the past/ of the future/ of the present/ crossing.// between/blurred boundaries

and textured contours?//

space is an illusion of/ depth and movement.// and my left foot is racing my right.// in horizontal timed rhymes/but i am still Myself.// standing with this disorder/ in order.//

i am an intersection/of zeros and ones/ at a border a/ cross between/ my life lines and sky lines.// but i am still Myself.//i am driving insanity/ toward the sunrise.//  released.//

JANEisnotplain

begun on 12/28/09, finished 1/1/10 at 0745am on carroll st.

 

exquitiste chaos

exquisite chaos

i woke up with my hand on a thousand nerve endings.

neurons that respond to light stimuli flickering and firing

bits of neural code mapping the steady rise of visceral blood

pounding the raw limits of imagination for pleasure only.

how did this happen? and by what means?

JANEisnotplain 12/30/09

0345am project

0330 am: out of control

 0330 am: out of control

[   ] want so much and [  ] are just doing [   ] best

and [   ] see things there that no one else does and

[   ] keep tripping and banging into walls of worth-

less conversation but [   ] keep going because [   ]

know its worth it and people say that the journey

matters but of course the destination does too or

what is the point if [   ] are too real for anyone to

comprehend and too passionate to the point of

self indulgent excess and all of life is focused on

a single point that is out of control.

[   ] really just want to kiss [    ].

JANEisnotplain 10.30.09  0349am

0330 am : alone

0330 am : alone


this is what it is like to be alone.
squinting fingers hang on new edges
emptiness glances up at me like old times
nothings whisper over fallen shoulders
i feel liberated and possible.

JANEisnotplain 10.27.09 0342am

0330am project: sun downing

0330am project: sun downing

0334am: i am
re-booting
up & typing
white glares
screen washes
my face in
electric luminance
one more hour
until work comes
early sometimes
sleep not
at all
i save
and quit
shut-down
back to
bed: 0414am


JANEisnotplain 9.09